Direction and Balance

I haven’t posted anything for over five months. This is a reflection of my life and personality. I’m a perfectionist, not that my life reflects perfection but I just strive so hard for it. I guess I’m what you would call a “discouraged perfectionist”. I’m all or nothing. If I can’t do something perfect then I tend to not do it at all. I’m a procrastinator by nature, but this personality trait drives me insane. So the reason I haven’t posted in five months is because I have this vision of this amazing life changing blog that everyone will want to read. I’ve set the standard so high for myself that if I can’t make each post amazing then I just don’t post at all. I forget about all the baby steps, and the fact that you have to start somewhere.

So here it is; the beginning of my blog. This will be a very candid blog about my life as a child of God, a wife, a mother, a daughter, and a friend. I struggle with the same things that all women struggle with. Sometimes I feel like I’m the only person in the world that feels the way I feel, and then I realize that I’m abnormally normal. I struggle with the want for instant gratification and to not be so all or nothing. I play so many roles in life that sometimes I feel like I’m having a hard time being good at any of them. Just as the old saying goes, “I’m the jack of all trades but the master of none”. I’m just at a stage in life where I’m trying to figure out how to have more balance in my life.

I have so many amazing ideas for this blog, but I’m not sure what direction to go towards. I have so many things that I want to share about; God, nutrition, motivation, raising kids, organization, inspiration, gift giving, recycling, living more simply, and the list just goes on and on. I have some projects that I want to start and document from start to finish because they are things we all struggle with. It’s just nice to not feel that we are charting new water all alone.

So to all my readers: Please bear with me as I find the direction for this blog, but whatever direction I take I promise you will never be bored. Suggestions are always welcome. Come back and visit soon and leave transformed. That is my hope for me, and everyone who reads this.
~Toni